Learning To Love.

So i've got a few words to say to you
before you walk away from me
about everything that you put me through
from when I loved you
to when I lost you

I know how numb and empty it feels to lose someone
I've lost count of the things i've done just to feel something
and the number of tears i've wasted
when you look into his eyes with the same smile you gave mine
it hurts
I've given you everything I have
and i've got so much more to give
you're what I live for
I could have been everything you want and more
but now I hate to love you
and you love to hate me
so
I should have known when you dropped and swapped me so easily
you couldn't see what we
could have been so you chose the wrong sugar
Don't make me say it
but I loved ya.

Loosen your grip because you're holding me wrong
And i've waited far too long for this
but we're both far too lost and this
is tearing me apart
i'll try not to hold my breath
but i've got nothing left
so i'll try my best to get out of this mess 
and pretend that i'm alright

Now I know you didn't like it when I wrote our situations into songs
You didn't want to be involved
but whether it was face to face or through music
You never cared about my feelings in fact you used it
You know i'd do anything to see your face
Whether it was clothes or roses or i'd take you some place
We could be together
things would be better
for me at least
another clean sheet
We coud start again
but this whole time I never intended to be so damn defensive
but you're what I wanted most 
so I held you close
but now we're so far apart
this is where the crying starts
Curled up on my bed in a dark room
trying to forget about what you put me through
my minds a mess but what i'll remember last is this
because it's the last track I write about you

Loosen your grip because you're holding me wrong
And i've waited far too long for this
but we're both far too lost and this
is tearing me apart
i'll try not to hold my breath
but i've got nothing left
so i'll try my best to get out of this mess 
and pretend that i'm alright


Eyes are red
knuckles are blue
alone in my bed 
'cause I chose to love you
What does he say that makes you happier than what I say?
What does he do that makes you happier than what I do?
When you kissed me again it made my whole world stop and my heart melt
when only us mattered and nothing else
All I ask for is once chance but 
everyone always wants the one thing they can't have so
forget about me and everything we ever had
let him try to make you happier than I can
but he won't
he'll sink you like a boat
then i'll ask again what does he have that I don't?
Ever had to give up everything you've ever wanted just for them to be happy?
I'm never gonna hold your hand again or hug you
the end is in sight
I know it doesn't mean a thing and i've lost the fight but
he'll never be me
he'll never appreciate the smiles you show him
or the times your eyes are glowing
the places we were going
you didn't know it but our love wasn't all that it seemed
been living life through a dream
you'd rather give him that chance I always wanted
I'm devastated
You won't believe how long i've waited to lie next to you
to have my shirt covered in make up
but it's fake love
I don't want to carry on
I don't want to wake up

Loosen your grip because you're holding me wrong
And i've waited far too long for this
but we're both far too lost and this
is tearing me apart
i'll try not to hold my breath
but i've got nothing left
so i'll try my best to get out of this mess 
and pretend that i'm alright


He'll never you like I can
Imagine if I had you
I'd be happy for once
In abundance
I could be anything you want
Now to move on 
see better things
better people
'cause they won't make me feel small
I wanna go back to when I didn't know you
things were better then
Don't get to know me because i'll lose you
and now i've got to learn to love again